Merry Christmas..

Here it is again Christmas Eve (ok 15 mins away for me)

Again I see another Christmas, another day of mixed emotions.
Another year of a task not completed.
This was a more painfull year.
My childeren so close and yet so far
I wanted to tell them I love them.
But even so close I, I tried and they cried.
I try to let them know i love them, and want to get to know them better. And them Me.
But when they work so close, and want to be so distant, Me being there only make the situation worse.
People tell me I should be glad i am so close to them.. but they dont see the pain it causes them and I. they cant see the wall that is between us.

I look for a gift to give and the one I can give is a jumble of words, telling them I would love to know them better, and I do love them.
Also that I am trying to physical distance between us, not because I dont want them, nor because I dont want to see them, or that my love has deminished. I change my job because I dont want to cause you pain, I want you to go to work in comfort not fear, to live with out words of dislike toward me.

When you hear words of hate about me you know that I am a part of you, so the less you hear of hate to me, the more you will love yourselves..
Move on guys dont let your efforts be in vain. do well in school, achieve for yourselves.. set your goals.. go for them..
Your achievers in my eyes now.. do well .. continue the journey, be proud in your eyes..
All I can give is not money, but my loving support..

a few months and my plans for our home town may change..

Please enjoy your christmas..


Oh and the other readers of this blog.. Be sure your loved ones know that you care, that you love them.. do it now.. for tomorrow the oppertunity may not be there.
And while you're opening/ giving gifts it isnt the dollars spent, but the heart used in presenting the gift..

Love you all,

Have a Merry, Safe and Holy Christmas..

Und3rtak3r